Amount woven yesterday: 2.5"
Amount woven to date: 2 yards + 23.5"
I've been reading about resistance . More specifically I've been reading about resistance in relation to the creative life. The book I've been getting my information from is by Eric Maisel. It is called Creativity for Life. In the chapter on resistance, Maisel defines this as the "remarkably stubborn disinclination to do the work of creating." (page 147)
I have never felt resistance to be particularly a problem for me. When it arises, I am usually able to push through it. There is, however, one thing I have been resisting. I have been resisting it for quite a while now. And right now, at this present moment, the resistance is dreadfully intense because the need to do this particular task is pressing very strongly and unrelentingly.
What is it that I am resisting? I am resisting the task of analyzing crackle drafts. Not just looking at the threading or the treadling. I am talking about analyzing the drafts in order to understand the reasons for the color arrangements I get so that, when I create a draft, I can purposefully create the colors to do what I want to do with them (within the limitations of the crackle structure). This means understanding how treadling, threading, and tieup work together. I simply cannot (will not?) break through this particularly resistance; and that inability is beginning to drive me mad because analysis is precisely what I need to do right now.
Maisel's suggestions do not help, because the resistance he is addressing really involves physical action: getting out the paint brush and painting, sitting at the loom and weaving, opening up the notebook and writing. Often I am resistant to beginning a series of dyeing experiments. I solve that easily. I pick out one, and only one, easy initial task that I can do. Usually that is something like covering the counter surface with oil cloth. Once I do that, I just keep right on! The resistance is broken.
Draft analysis does not involve physical activity. It is a mental process. And I do not know how to break through a purely mental process. I do not know how to break through this because I do not understand enough of what is involved to figure out an initial easy first step. Figuring out that first step that might get me going. Maybe I could look at just one block....